Hey Stranger.

Well it's been awhile since I've written anything on here. I suppose I sort of forgot about it in all the commotion of the last few months. 'Cept for when i think back on it, nothing really has happened. Except for school. That's what the last few months have consisted of. Worrying about school. Studying for school. Doing homework for school. Never in my life have I been so utterly consumed by my classes and my grades. But junior year counts. Junior year is what matters. So it's worth it, right? God, I don't know if that justifies it. I don't like what my life is becoming. I don't want to remember my days as a sixteen year old like this... and yet I don't see any other options. I won't allow bad grades. And I'm not dropping any of my classes. So that leaves me between a rock and a hard place. Joy. Just where I want to be.

At the same time, my lack of attention on all things not school related has made me realize something: I'm not missing out on much. The people I call my friends aren't really that interesting to me anymore. It is slightly upsetting.

I use way to many adverbs.

And Say Anything concert is Friday. And the New Moon premiere is Thursday night. And my research paper is due soon. And I've only got a few more weeks to push my B's up. And I'm giving it my all. And I'm doing all I can. And that scares me.